I know you feel it too, these words get over used

So first off, I realize I use a lot of Tegan and Sara quotes in this blog, however, it's purely out of admiration, and love for their oh so talented lyrics. Plus they almossstt always have something to do with what I'm writting about. Anyways now that the proper acknowledgments are made, on to the topic at hand...those three little words people will do anything to hear, though apparently you dont have to do much now a days. Thats right, "I love you."

Those words are to describe an intense feeling between 2 people, whether it be romantic, or platonic. Now more so than not, people are getting the two confused, people are shooting out "I love you"'s everywhere, all the time. I hate to say this, but it is mostly with younger people, although, I have been seeing it in older people too, and I just dont get it.

I do believe that you dont have to be older to know what love is, I believe that you can feel it when your young, however, it's rare, and most often does not work out between those people because of the fact that it is an intense feeling, and overwhelming for a young age, where your not completely emotionally developed yet.

Why do people find the need to say those words as fast as can be acceptable?
how do you love someone if you've only dated them for a month? You can't possibly know this person enough to properly evaluate wether you love them or not.

That whole 'Love at first site' thing, yeah, I do kind of believe it's possible, once again, rare. But I think it's confused with infatuation, chemistry, attraction, and intuition.

To be honest, if i was dating someone who said i love you right away, it would be a huge turn off, for the following reasons:

1) They are obviously not mature enough to fully understand the meaning of love
2) It would remind me of highschool boys, not so fun.
3) It would loose the meaning of those words, so that when one day they actually may mean it, and it wouldnt make a difference, or mean anything to me
4) They have no concept of mature relationships, or time

So why do people think it's romantic when someone loves you after only knowing you a few short weeks?

It's not! It's cheesy, and false, and misleading, and totally totally misguided.

The worst is when as soon as a couple starts becomming official, they feel its customary to just say it right away. How are you supposed to feel the happiness the first time someone tells you they love you, the butterflies and the intense joy, if theyve said it to you a million times before, but haven't truly meant it?

The moral of the story today kids is, STOP SAYING I LOVE YOU SO MUCH! you're killing it, they're becomming words like 'and' 'hey' and 'what' way too casual.

**This Blog was writting on a generalized observance, I do realize not every single person is like this, it is a rant, get over it**

& I think pancakes just farted.

its almost 4 am. ive been doing nothing but cleaning all day. its the same routine, we let the house get a disaster, then someone wants to visit and we go into crazy clean mode. the problem is, no matter how much i do, when the parentals get home they act as if ive done nothing at all. i was sick all day and i still cleaned, and theres no appreciation.

so now im in the basement, 4 am, still cleaning, and about to puke, listening to the new tegan and sara album, and whats worse? pancakes just farted and it smells.

pancakes is my baby, hes a holland lop bunny, white, with a teeny touch of grey. i pretty much spoil him.

theres some banging upstairs, kinda wondering what the hell it is, cuz its quite a racket. ahhhh toilet flushed, must be one of the brothers.

i guess to whomever is reading this, it sounds like a mindless rant, but i guess thats whats fun about it. every once in a while i like looking into other peoples minds exactly how its comming out, so i figure, i cant be the only one?

my nanas arriving in just a few hours, from Nova Scotia. Its her first time up since my Papa died at the end of July. shes taking it pretty hard. It still seems kinda surreal to me, guess its cuz i dont let myself think about it too much.

I find that whenever i feel sad, but i dont wanna think about the situation myself, i pop in a really sad movie and just cry, at least it takes my mind off of my personal issue, but still allows me to feel the emotion, and get a good cry out. i hope other people do this too.

anyways, i guess im just wasting time typing away when i could be doing the rest of the cleaning, still have the rest of my room, mopping the kitchen, doing dishes, clean dining room, sweep dining room and vacum my room *sigh* hopefully i get in at least one hour of sleep, i dont know if i can do an all nighter, ive been exhausted since 9pm

and on a side note, im kind of pissed that cafe world on facebook isnt working right now, cuz my foods gunna burn.

There's A Possibility, There's A Possibility...

I have many friends, acquaintances, and very few close friends. I have this best friend, Jonathan, we’ve been best friends since I can remember, diapers I guess. I think the reason we’ve remained so close is because we’ve grown up together, all of life’s challenges, we’ve faced as a team. Everything from our first time getting drunk, to running away in the middle of the night cause I was mad at my parents, he’s always been there for me, and I’ve always been there for him, cause we’re like, a package deal, get one, your stuck with the other.

My dad explained us once, as on a different frequency than the rest of the world, and I have to agree, we don’t have to speak to know what the other is thinking, we have a strong connection and it cannot, and will not ever be broken. We share so many memories together, I don’t even know where to start, its almost not even fair to the others in our lives, cause I know, for me, he always will come first. Not to say we haven’t had out fights, issues, and serious problems, but at the end of the day, we love each other, and would die for each other. I have so much emotional support from him,

I don’t need any significant other in my life all the time. I look at other people who don’t know what to do with themselves when their single, and I’m so grateful that I don’t have that dependency, because of Jonathan. When we were young, we planned to get married and live in a pink house together with a Golden Retriever and a white picket fence, in Nova Scotia. Then he realized he was gay, I got over my teddy bear weddings and sailor moon games, and we realized that the love we felt for each other was not romantic, it was much deeper rooted, it was friendship at its strongest possibility.

Now, we’re older, and adults, we are still moving in together, but no, we’re not getting married. We’re going to live in a classy but homey apartment, in Toronto, not Nova Scotia, and we’re still getting a dog, preferably a Bernese Mountain dog, but we’re still looking. There’s no one else I could picture having this family life with without a romantic connection, and that’s what I love about us.

So be jealous, cause there are very few people in this world who get to have a best friend as amazing as my Jonathan, and share the same kind of bond we have,

It's Been So Long Since You Said, "I Know What I Want, & What I Wants' Right Here With You"

Clear night, pretty cold, looking up and checking out Delilah, and her neighbours I suppose. Thinking about a similar night, however not so cold. We said we’d warm each other with hugs. Thinking about how angry I was, and at what point did it all go wrong, when I realized I’ve been mad at the wrong person. Guess it was that night when it happened, even though it had been going on much longer. All the hints, the subtle and the obvious, and I was too scared, I didn’t want to fall in, harder than I already had.

But I guess that means its my fault, things would have been different if I was brave, if I didn’t really love you to the point of fear. I didn’t want you to know the power you had, the intensity of that feeling. I know you cared, even though you didn’t show it all the time, but in those moments when you let me in, I saw all the wonders that made you who you were, that made me fall in love, and that’s when I got the most scared. Its been years, and I wonder why its taken so long to figure it out, but if your reading this, I’ve got something to tell you.

I’m sorry.

I’m sorry I’ve been angry at you this whole time, I’m sorry I thought the worst, I’m sorry it was my fault, and I’m sorry I wasn’t brave enough, and that you wasted your time trying.

I’m not saying I want you back, cause I’ve moved past all that, I’m just acknowledging the fact that if I had just not been so scared of how I felt, things would be different, and maybe I wouldn’t have hurt you.

I do miss it, I miss the feelings, I miss the connection, I miss the laughs and the butterflies, and I miss you, but everyone’s got that one who got away.

You’re the one who got away.